Is this for me? Can I become a blogger? To put one's thoughts and reflections out there for all to see is an intimidating thought. Do I want to let so many in on these thoughts? I can be quite the private person at times and confess that I often remain at a distance, keeping others from my inmost feelings...
On the other hand...
I am six months into a 13 month stint of being away from my family of friends in Seattle. The friends I hold dear feel so far away; not just physically but emotionally and relationally. Talking to them once a week does not suffice for much of a friendship. But it's hard to talk more than that, really- if I'm honest. Life keeps us all busy. And yet, I find myself asking "is that enough of an excuse? Or are you taking the easy way out, Libby? Sure you're busy, but what is more important than relationships and connecting with those you hold dear?"
These questions bounce around in my head; up. down. to the side. back to the top. around and around. Who do I share these questions with?
Those I share my days in and days out with here are mostly surface relationships. These people- these future teachers- they don't truly know me; know my heart. They don't know my past, my interests, my quirks, my passions... They know me as a classmate, a future teacher, a professional colleague.
Is this why I find myself filling out a blogger website profile, selecting a username and password, and verifying my email address? Is this what it takes to feel like I am connecting with others? Perhaps this is how I can connect with more of my dear friends in a more timely manner?? Man... is this really the best way?
I am a TIME oriented person! I VALUE quality time spent with those I love. If you want to know how to warm my heart, spend time with me. Lets talk, laugh, ask questions, walk, play, just be together... This is what I miss. This is why I am becoming a blogger.
